Resolution 2011 #44

Well it is almost the beginning of a new year. Will I be able to improve any part of my broken, unhealthy, fat, unhappy life? After all these years and many of the same old New Years Resolution can I do it, can anyone do it? Does any one stick to anything they say on January 1st, of any year for 3 months, 6 months, a year, for ever? Well at 44 years old, 40lbs over weight, mental detached from the world and all that is in it I am going to give it one more shoot. Here are the things that need to be improved in my life...

1. weight loss 40lbs
2. never smoke again
3. exercise at least 5 days a week
4. strengthen my body (spinal damage/surgery from car wreck)
5. learn to be a good friend
6. find new healthy friendships
7. learn to meditate/relax
8. read a book a month
9. watch less TV

It sounds like a lot for one person to do, but I think many of these things mesh together and one improvement will lead to others.

As I walk through the next 365 days I am going to be honest and upfront on this blog. I am going to tell you everything. What I do and don't do, how I feel about each day. I am going to use Atkins as my meal planner, I have an exercise bike, treadmill and elliptical as well as floor therapy exercise for my back and neck.



We all need Hope!



Each day I am going to share about my childhood abuses and the abuse I inflict upon myself now as an adult (such a bad thoughts, mean attitudes toward others) I am going to bare myself to each of you and I am going to own what I do for 365 days. Will that heal me? Will that enable me to care enough about myself to take care of myself? In the end of this coming year I hope to have a more healthy lifestyle and body as well as a better mental attitude and the ability to wake up each day and be truly happy.

I am looking for encouragement and honesty from everyone. I want to hold up a mirror to myself and see what others see in me.